The Way It Is

This is a hard life.  I can't even imagine what it would have been like if I went to Afghanistan instead of Dubai.  At least here I have some sort of freedom and I can sleep in my apartment in silence instead of with 150 other woman.

So far I am enjoying my duties and I am learning more each day.  I have a very long way to go before I am sufficient though.  I thought I would be moving at a faster pace (work wise) than I am.  But I guess it will just take time to adjust and dig my heels in.  I have to bite my tongue a lot and just try to do my best.  However, there are a few things that I have to put my foot down on and I am not willing to budge.  Of course, I think that is making me look like a bad seed.  So let me tell you about me before I tell you about that.

For the last week I have not been physically feeling my best.  I have a case of the travelers sickness (won't go in to detail but I think my mom calls it Montazuma's revenge lol).  Three days ago I woke at 3:00 am with a closed throat.  I could barely breathe and I could talk even less.  Of course, I was required to go to work and I did not want to already start missing days.  I started off my 15 hour day popping pills and drinking hot tea.  Throughout the day it got a little better and I gained my voice back by mid morning.  Today is day three of the soar throat and while I feel like it is getting a little better, I started to cough up bloody phlem.  By this afternoon my legs and feet were so swollen I couldn't even see my ankles.  I am looking at them now and they have not changed.  So as you can imagine, I am not in the best mood or frame of mind to do any heavy thinking.  Tomorrow is my day off and I plan on sleeping it off.  Hopefully it will help.

**I had written a novel here but once I got it all out I decided that it best be left unsaid.  Can't vent my disagreements with work on an internet post.  I need to learn to pick my battles and hold my ground on the most important issues.


So tomorrow is definitely rest and relaxation.  I need the time to get my mind and body straight so I can go in smiling on Saturday ready to work my butt off.